This blog is addressed to someone particular. It may seem immature or wrong. But it’s been on my mind for a long time and I’m really ready to let it out.
You left. You left with almost not a single word. Someone who helped change my life so dramatically and you left. We never got a real reason, just a load of crap after another. With out warning, we were left to make our own assumptions. Now, since you’ve left all the accusations have come out. All negative, all bad. And I’m left to pick the one I think would be most probable.
People who care for you ask how you’re doing. People who once meant something to you, they ask you about life. But you can’t find the time of day to respond back to anyone. You can’t manage to send us a report on how life is. No, you just take all the negative energy already associated with your name and make it worse. I don’t know if you’re mad at us. But the fact is, no matter what happened between you and the church, pastor matt, or anyone; you shouldn’t take it out on us. When you took that job, it was a lifetime commitment, even if you left two months in, you signed up for a life time relationship with everyone in the church. But you just leave, and you get everyone fired up. You got some of the best leaders c3 had to offer, to stomp off with you, making the youth group have to assume about them as well.
I’ve been out of the country, I’ve flipped my car, I have 8 people living in my house, my dads still in Iraq. But, how could you know? You use to ask me about those things. But now, you don’t care enough to drop a line to anyone. I know nothing about what’s going on in your life. Except from what I see in my facebook mini-feed.
I looked up to you, I respected you like no one else in the world. When your name was said, all these positive thoughts came to my head. I didn’t listen to anything people said about you, and I always defended you. Now, all my thoughts of you are negative, all of them. I feel like everything that the church and you shared was for nothing.
But I guess, you know what’s best for you. Right?
2 comment(s) from you.:
Im pretty sure I know who you are talking about, and I totally agree.
It's awesome that you have the boldness to speak out like that.
I also agree w/ ya. The "long haul" didn't seem as long as I would have thought it should be. When you put that much trust into a relationship w/ someone w/ that kind of authority and its broken...how do you trust again?!
As an adult(and passed leader), I'd like to say that I wish I was more connected with the youth, but I feel more like an outsider or intruder. I'm more of a listener that a question asker but if there's ever a time anyone needs me I'll be there. :0)
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