Relationship Status: Single

I told people at one time that I wasn't going to date until I got out of High school. I told them that I had made that commitment to GOD. But, I realized I was just using that as an excuse when people asked my why I didn't have a girlfriend. I used GOD, the creator of the universe, as an excuse to why I couldn't "get some". Sorry for my street lingo there. The fact is, I really don't have a problem, with the idea of dating in high school, or the fact that people do it.

I think that GOD gives us those relationships in High school to possibly makes us stronger and to test us to see if were ready for bigger things to come. I've always like the idea of having a girlfriend. I'm not even going to lie, but there is someone who "catches my eye" at the moment. But, I'm not going to tell her, or anyone. I'm not going to play that whole middle school crush game. The only reason I would ever tell someone I liked them, I use that word "like" in a blurred way because I hate that saying, is if I felt as thought the feeling was mutual. But since me and this person have basically talked about it in a indirect way, I don't think that she feels the same way. Plus, I don't want to freak her out, or hinder our relationship with each other.

I pray that GOD will send someone into my life when he thinks it's time. I pray that he keeps me strong, and doesn't let me become that person who I use to be. I want that relationship with someone, but at this point and time, I don't feel like theres anyone in my life that I have the feelings for. Even though there is that one person, I don't want to become anyone who will be obsessed. I don't want to write a blog that hints about the person who I like, so that hopefully they will figure it out, but in the long runs just makes them run away.

These feelings were gone for a really long time, but there back. I have matured since then. Although there isn't anything I can do to stop these feelings, I hope I can learn to cope with them. I pray that I can keep my eyes focused on GOD and on my beliefs. I hope that I have grown since the last crush, but I guess we'll see.

Single until GOD says so,
-Joe