Thursday, December 6, 2007

Psalm 139

11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

Last night God spoke to me. He didn’t whisper it in my ear nor did he yell it to my face. It was more of a moderate tongue that spoke realization in my heart.

Forever have I doubted myself, forever I said that there was nothing I was good at, and forever I though that I had nothing to offer this world. But last night God told me that when I doubted myself, I doubted him.

I doubted what he created, what he did, I doubted his purpose.

Romans 14:23
But the man who has doubts is condemned if he eats, because his eating is not from faith; and everything that does not come from faith is sin.

I’ve let the devil have this hold on me, a void stopping me from getting real with God. I let him tell me, that since I’m not amazing in school, I’m not an artist, I’m not a musician, I’m not the athlete, that I am not worth anything.

But I’m here to proclaim to you, the world, the devil, and most importantly myself that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, and that God created me for a reason, and I will not like anyone stop me from fulfilling his plan for me.

I may not understand it now; But God has a purpose for me. I proclaim here and now that the devil will no longer have this hold on me. Last night I felt the hand of God reaching in me and taking that void around my heart in his hands and destroying it.

I can’t run a mile in 6 minutes, I don’t get all A’s, I can’t paint you a masterpiece or sing you a song. I don’t use correct grammar, I do, however, count with my fingers. I use corny little rhymes to remember things, and I correct myself incorrectly. But that’s because God made me real, he made me organic.

I don’t know what God wants me to do in life. I have no clue. But one day he will tell me out of the blue. It might be telling me to move to Africa, or he could tell me to get an office Job and have your American dream. He might tell me to be a head pastor, youth pastor, or children’s pastor. He might tell me to move to Indiana and start a church.

I don’t know, but he knows, and I put my faith in him. He has my future, he’s writing my map, and he has my purpose.

I am here for something, and I am good for something.

4 comment(s) from you.:

Anonymous said...

I've realized that sometimes getting real with yourself and with God is the first step, the only step. The only step, the only key, to becomming radical & real. I've learned getting real with yourself and getting real with who God has made you, who this God of ours really is, is the only way I'm ever going to make a difference. Not in the huge things - but in the step by step, day by day, conversation by conversation, laugh by laugh.

It's kinda amazing; this God thing, this God consuming thing.

Lorren Ellen said...

AMEN!
GOD has been speaking to me about this a lot lately as well. Everyone has a purpose in this life, and GOD has made a plan for each and everyone of us. Our story has been written, all we have to do is ask GOD to read us this book and show us all of the wonderful pages inside of it.
From time to time Satan gets a hold of us all and tries to make us feel insignificant and like we only have faults and serve no purpose in this world. Anyone can give in to that and believe that they are good for nothing, but it takes a true person with a REAL fire for Christ to turn from the enemies lies and seek GOD for the truth of their lives and their real purpose!

Sue said...

I agree with Lorren. Oh if I could have learned this stuff yrs ago....

Anonymous said...

i wrote this a few days ago but didn't realize that i didn't post it already.

psalm 3:3-6 {the message}
But you, God, shield me on all sides; you ground my feet, you lift my head high; with all my might I shout up to God, His answers thunder from the holy mountain. I stretch myself out. I sleep. Then I'm up again—rested, tall and steady, fearless before the enemy mobs coming at me from all sides.


Any lies the devil gives you, are garbage. Your artistic abilities, scholastic abilities, and athletic abilities are irrelevant to your success - they are not holding you back. Anything, everything, is in your reach. Your life is capable of everything. You are capable of everything. What you will do with your days will be an eclectic mix of all that you are and all that God is. There is something specific for you; very likely many, many things. Diverse things. Scary things. Wickedly amazing things. You are not limited, by yourself, by God, by your natural abilities. You have strengths, you have talents. Do more, see more. Find out about yourself. Do what God has compelled you to do.

Whatever you do in the future, you'll be a leader, at your office job or your ministry job (or both) and in your church and with your friends. Go on a missions trip, to anywhere. Go see, go see the world. Go see how it is, and you'll see how compatible you are with it, with helping people in a tangible, real way and pointing them to God.

You are a leader, it’s your nature. You have a way with people; you make them feel at ease. It’s crazy how excellent you are with that, people open themselves and lay themselves out and make themselves at home in you. You’re so real. You love people, because they’re people. You value people in an authentic way. You value children. All of this, you have directly picked up from Jesus. That's what He was like. You have those qualities like Him, and they're a springboard for everything else that's gonna happen in your life, everything else you're gonna do.

 

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